28/1/10 dairy

today, my teacher thought me about modes of communication... what they said on the slide is all DONTS but I'm doing it instead so I've been sad since they started talking about this... for example, they tell me not to bottle up my feelings, they tell me there's a time for me to relax but do you think so? they even say not to avoid your problems so I've been thinking whether to face up to problems and reality or avoid problems and reality... But I don't think its the right time to to pour out your feelings from the bottle... Instead of facing up to your problems, you rather you rather keep quiet because if you face up your problems, you will get scoldings so you better not risk it!!!:P
If it is money problems, we as children can do a great help, we can stop asking our parents for money instead you should be saving for all you can if you need to buy a book for school, use your own money unless it is not enough. for example we can save money on recess we can don't eat and eat at home after school. though we can't do much, but at least we're helping our parents. Although I understand some of your parents often scold you, but you must think that they are doing it for your own good...

22/1/10 dairy

Hais... yesterday night, I cried because i was afraid of when my mum was old who was going to take care of her? so if my dad do not take care of her, i will force my dad to take care of her...
today, there's more question about life for me to reflect. Sandra do not face consequences which will make it hard for my family. Mum and dad do not co-operate with each other... my mind is mad now I wish i could end my life so that I no need to think about all these problems. We need a man a trusted man. though our problems is difficult to solve, but I life still goes on... because we need to face the reality, consequences. So I'd like to share this sentence to all of you "though matter how life is, we shouldn't just end your life. like me, though though we cannot choose who is our parents but we can choose the route we go" these 6 values is important 1. perseverance 2. resepct, 3.integrity, 4.equality and 5.compasion 6. responsibility. i say perseverance is because life will still go on we have to face difficulty if you don't persevere means you dont resepct yourself only you can choose your route which way u wan to go. and respect is still about life though you don't like the opponent you don't want to go to competition but at least even if you know that you are going to lose, come on face the reality if you go to the competition you are respecting your opponent. and integrity is if you dont have integrity you wouldn't own up you didn't do your work. but why bother to get more scolding you rather own up than get scolding. euality means to be fair to everybody even if you hate this person you brought some snacks, share with that person because for example if u dont share nothing will change your mind set to hate that person rite? ask yourself will lie change? ans is no to me. compassion - care about that person at least... responsibility- be responsible for your work face consequences u didn't do hw at least u deserve to be scolded DO NOT blame ur parents or your friend or your teachers. u are responsible to pack ur things and do your work if you blame your other people, bear this is mind, 4 fingers is pointing at you... okay thats what i've got to tell you now "be strong" for those people who are in the situation as me.