current problems

I've a problem here. I'm with a friend but she's not loyal to me at all. I've been with her for 2 yrs already. I have a feeling that she's making use of me. First she'll say that she wants to come to my house to print her homework, I've always given in to her. So, as time passes, she began coming my house more often mostly is to use the printer. Is my "giving in to her" harming her and myself? Well, sometimes after she has done her homework and print her homework, she'll ask me to let her play facebook, as usual, i also give in to her then after playing, she'll go to the kitchen with me to take food to eat and sometimes, even bring home the food. As time passes, i began thinking "am i being used by her? She's not loyal to me, so i think, she really is using me." Well, as soon as i began thinking about that, i began to start considering the thought of servering all ties with her as soon as possible in case she uses me more often. Since, its the end of the year, of course, the school will issue the class we're going to next year. I was looking forward to that day and I knew i was going to a different class and I did go to a different class from her. Now, she wants to come my house to print her things again but i told her say that i'm not free then she ask so many question that urge me to let her come my house. Now, I'm thinking excuses to not let her come my house so that i can server all ties with her. But what excuse can I give, she's not so easily fooled. I know its not easy to server all ties with a 2yrs friend. but I'll try to think of some ways then... I'll consult some people whom i know to give me ideas.

Is it a revenge or feeling thing?

So, right. I'll just talk about the topic. First thing first, my sister always bully me as she doesn't know what the feeling is to get bullied. Just now (not long ago) I was having dinner. My sis was in the living room watching tv and eating her dinner. My cousin (who always protect me from my sister) came back. I was so relieved that I didn't really have to worry so much that i would get hit. So, he came back and saw my sister. I think he doesn't like her to watch tv and eat at the same time, so, he told my sister to eat at the kitchen. From previous experience, she "ok! I'll go" face. then she came to the kitchen. my sis was mumbling something bad bout him so my cousin overheard and he came to the kitchen and like ask her what did she say. she, of course scared la, so didn't say anything. She complained to my father. then i wonder hmm, daddy's baby. Then, my cousin came in to take water and he pat my sis head say, eat ah eat somemore. Of course, there's nothing wrong with that. Out of anger, my sis ran into the toilet and bang the door "BANG" Then she cry lor... I was wondering what's wrong with her? she keeps bullying me but she doesn't like people to bully her. Sigh... She don't know how does it feel to be bullied. so is this a revenge for me or a lesson to her? I guess its a revenge to me and maybe nothing to her. Let me just tell u, the next day, you'll see her up and about bullying everybody. and she'll take it like nothing has happen.

mel's hse

today came back from mel's hse... !!!
Day 1: at night go then play mel's itouch so fun but got tired of it... played the fruit ninja- beat her score... play play play then alr 12 am then i say "mel! is alr late. i mean its so early, shldn't u be slping?" then we joke. slept at about 12.30am++
Day 2: 8am wake up then fall aslp then 9am+ wake up again then lay in bed for like 30min and im up for the day :D breakfast was milo and muffin then bath >wash clothes - so funny, mel tell me pour the water away then i forgotten the door is infront of me then i pour the water TOWARDS the door and the water was splashed all over then we laugh laugh laugh. play com... mel and me just in the room on air con then we just mind our own business. commed till lunch - bread and instant noodle. commed again then dinner - mcdonald mel throw the food to me even sabo me. at night, mel's mum come back come to the room with a towel and ask why so wet then mel sabo me say i pour the water out... so play com then slp at 1am...

Why is it always my fault?

just about an hour ago, i was talking to my cousin then my sister was just beside then she just hit my head very hard so i hit her back also then she hit back so i also hit back then she hit back again then i hit back again... then she didn't hit back already so i shout "u started it first!". if u all think im wrong, find me! but let me tell u something before u find me. but in the end she say i start it first but did i hit her first?!
The reason why i hit her back: because from small, i had tolerated her abuse already and i just want to let her know that I'm not someone whom she can always beat when she thinks the person is wrong without getting facts right.
Facts about me: I don't go round hitting people for no reason! There's a limit to where I can hold the abuse. I'm quite a brave person and knows how to control my emotion so count her lucky that i didn't use my strength because if i use, think she WILL lose.
Well, to be honest with u, this war isn't over again because I know she'll tell my mum about it and definitely, my mum will take sides on her and its because my sister will tell a different story to make it that she's right.
Even though I'm young but I know that I have a clear concious. So this is my future plans if she tell:

1. back fire and tell the whole truth which is "i was just talking to my (cousin) then sis go and hit me so hard so she started it first lor... i tolerated her abuse already ok?! this time its she started it first. if u think im wrong then fine but let me tell u, this isn't over yet. when i grow up lets see who will be more useful. when she's in trouble dont expect me to help her!
2. name the facts why im right
3. ignore and walk away
   

Day2

today is promotion day for our school where they duno sit in a meeting room and do the report books tingy ... so there's no school :D yeepee. ok so lets start wat i do today
today, woke up at 9.30am then lay on the bed for 5min then go toilet do daily stuff then breakfast commed till 10.30 tuition till 12pm commed then 12.30 lunch followed by commed then after that talked with my cousin then assessment then that was when mary went online :D ok talked, talked then so now, just finished talking and nw blogging :D there's nt much to talk today but...
predicted ting later:
commed and assessment then bath > dinnner > TV till 10 then slp. so school resume tmr and wake up early then began my fearful day again... cuz got rehearsal singing... mrs soh gona leave FSPS so we sing the auld lang syne for her... then the weekends :D so im counting down to the holdiay: 5 - 4 - 3 - 2 - 1 and... HOLIDAY :D

Day1

ok hi, u must be thinking wat day 1 means right, well im writing wat i do almost everyday here...
so today was such an unfortunate day... morning wokeup bout 6.15am went school 1st period is miss lim, teacher start coming in then scold scold scold... after that some pupils presented some NE stuff then teach here teach there cuz teacher say that she dont know how to teach NE so ask us go see textbk diferent grp present diferent stuff our group, grp10 presented Major William Farquhar... I cant believe teacher say we girls presented better than boys cuz boys no eye contact then girls got eyecontact... then blah blah blah. after that PE :D no place to play PE so Mr Jumadi just took some football ball, net ball ball, basketball and badminton... and he tell us find some place and go play... so me and my friend didn't do anything cuz we dont really like balls so we just slack at 1 side Mr Jumadi say go and play then we just pretend to be walking like playing like that then netball game suddenly cut off cuz 1 person ACCIDENTALY push the other person then the other person PERPOSELY push that person then that person cry so dont play lor... so we went to the field to see soccer boys that was when another ACCIDENT HAPPEN! 1 boy accidentally kick the ball and it flew right to another boy face who was wearing spec so the boy just sit on the field with blood, think he was stun that the ball DIRECTLY flew to his face. Luckily that boy never cry so the game went on... but let me tell u, given the look on his face, he wanted to CRY. okok enough bout those UNFORTUNATE stuff. Went reccess followed by MT then ENG then miss lim lesson again... for eng, we used the period to practise the speech and drama because we need to perform at the end of year... and each time it finishes, everybody will clap then laugh... LOL. that's why my friends mean the most to me they cheer me up everytime :D. then it was ms lim class which was the period where we presented... Luckily i was loud enough :D great improvement but there's still room for improvement... after that went home which was sucky cuz sis start bullying me liao......... she thinks that i dont respond to changes but deep inside my heart (heartbroken :'( ) so until my patient was limited, i shouted and she got a scolding hehehe :D that was fun. so overall, today's really is unfortunate

Day 1: failed

This afternoon ate lunch at home then went to Tampinese mall, went to get a drink at the food court then went window shopping and buy other things. Passed by somewhere and saw a few people giving away balloons --> maid and sis ask me if i want (of course i dun want right? -.-) then i told them that only my sis would take it. Then my sis started pulling my hair like crazy. I pretended not to cry but my tears will forever stay like a broken heart. i promised not to shed tears and yes, today i've finally made it. Now, I'm in the study room blogging... I wanted to sleep in my maid's room with air con but my dad say i cant andonce again, i shed tears, but deep down my heart its like my heart had just been deeply stabbed. Perharps I'm not suitable to be in this family. I got nothing to say but just cry in my heart

LOL

today, woke up at 9:15am... my hp rang because I put alarm at 8:30am... darn it... couldn't sleep last night because my watch broke last night and I think I'm not used not to wear my watch... Today mum went for class so my whole family inluding my maid except for my mum went to Tampinese mall to eat lunch and shop. Bought my new watch at there... Kept smsing people when we went out ate plenty of cold drink when my mum say we not allowed to drink or eat cold thing hehe... About 2:45pm we reached my grandfather's house to take our thing and go to our own home. My father never bring my grandfather's house key so we were like stuck out side the house then i use my handphone to call my mum to tell her say we no key so she called my grandparents and my aunt to hurry come back. They say wait for half an hour so I was like WTH??? At first when we reach outside the house, my father say alamak nobody at home i got no key... I didn't believe until we came out of the car and we really have no key... ok so i was like waiting out side the kitchen cuz at the back got a chair to sit so i sat there with my maid while my sis and my dad go pump petrol... soon, they come back already including my mum. so after that ate something and went to pack my things ready to go to my house...
watch show > dinner> Watch YOG game and singapore lose two rounds for the 1st stage and lose once for the 1st round on the 2nd stage. can't wait till wednesday... can go watch the YOG real one table tennis :D

what i do for the day :D

okok this post is written for yesterday's

slept bout 10+ woke up at 7:30+ just because of my sister wanted to wake up at 8am, darn it...
ate breakfast (bread and milo) same old thing... after that, went to on internet then on com. comed til bout 8+ then study til 10am then went down to make blueberry pancake until 1pm and that period was very funny my cousin was making pancake and because its very hard to turn, my cousin say make the pancake using my grandmother's waffle machine however, it failed the waffle sticked to the machine so we have to take it out. after that, my grandmother put in the liquid to try and make again. After the 2nd try, ok already, tried opening the machine to take the waffle out but the machine stick together and my grandmother could not open it, my cousin asked me to help my grandmother but my grandmother say its hot and my cousin say just now i touch not hot lah... but when me and my grandmother can't open, my cousin helped, when she touched, she screamed "ARGH!!! SO HOT!!!" then i ran out laughing... teehee.

ok after making waffle we ssat down and eat our lunch > bath while i was wearing my clothes, my tuition teachere ocme already so I have to hurry wear my clothes and dash out of the toilet. tuition till 3:30pm then comped and chat with my another cousin whose in canada. after that, back to study again as well as tv is on so I can watch the YOG games... after that, study study study till about 6:30pm then went to eat dinner which was rice with some side dishes as usual. after that rush up to study again until 9pm then went to watch tv "unriddle" which i know most of the chinese people watch. and then 10pm went to my room getting ready to sleep :D

why can't people just shut up and stop making trouble?

hais... I wonder why some people can't just zip their mouth and just mind their own bussiness? I hate these type of people. I just don't understand why can't they just mind their own bussiness, I don't touch you, you don't touch me, I don't talk, you don't talk! you can talk but it must be nessecary! but I wonder why can't people stop commanding another person. The main question is why can't they mind their own bussiness? I know everybody likes to command people but when people command you, what is your reaction? Maybe, your reaction will be "you have no right to command me" and the other person will say "you also commanded me!" and you will say "no." of course, most people will refuse to admit that you commanded that particular person. My sister just came in to the room and said something unessecary she said "get your f*cking file off!" but what did I do? I was just sitting on the chair and put my Science journal on the table and write my concept map. but she just come in and say it! such and irritating little bitch! now she's trying to make stupid noise, she's an idiot

LOL

HI!! today, was quite a long day... Everyday, i hope that is already 1pm because school's over and I needn't worry what's gonna happen either get a scolded or get a call from teacher asking me for the answer because, most of the time I'm dreaming away, so, when teacher call my name and ask for the answer, I don't know the question so i must hesitate for teacher to repeat again then I answer BUT if it is a science question i will like not answer cuz I don't even understand!!!! Here's 1 of my technique to those of you who are reading this post and hates school: Just don't listen to the teacher talking but you must pretend that you are paying attention. If teacher calls out your name, but you don't know the question, hesitate for awhile and then wait for the teacher to repeat the question but if the teacher don't repeat the question then you either DIE DIE or think up of an excuse one of the example i would give my teacher: I can't hear your question can you repeat? this is a warning: DO NOT GIVE THIS TYPE OF EXCUSE IF YOU ARE SITTING IN FRONT AND NOT TO FIERCE TEACHER!!! okok enough of that but every thursday, even if I hope that lesson ends at 1pm, still got supplementry. so no matter what i do also no use...

Should I?

I can't cope with my studies. I don't know why... I think its because I think more for my CCA than my studies which carries marks... I've been thinking if I should quit my CCA, but I have the potential in it. Should I quit? or should I just master my studies with my CCA? I know that can never be possible, but how? So maybe, I should just quit... but I've been always done my CCA project properly. Now that my CCA teacher knows that I have the potential in it too. So, is there a need to sacrifice my dream to become a very good IT person? Is it worth it? Maybe I should give it a thought once again. Or maybe, that's my final descision. Or after this project... I shall quit. YES!!! GOOOOOOOO this is my firm and final decision.

dare to do but doesn't dare to face the consequences

While we were waiting for our grandfather to come and fetch us back from school, Sandra keep bullying me even my classmates saw that including my class bully free ambassador. After waiting for a while, she went to buy a drink and told me to wait. I thought that I finally won't be bullied by Sandra again so I hurry talk whatever I want to say to my friend in private. However, Sandra came back as soon as possible and she was back to bully me again... In my mind, I was thinking: How did sandra become like this, why i never do anything to her and she does something to me? When will this misery end? I wanted to avoid her, but I couldn't. After tolerating her "bad saying trying to make fun of me and embarassed me in front of my friends" for awhile. I budge into the canteen trying not to let her know, but she followed me into the canteen. I though: Now, i will never ever get away from her!!! I didn't know what to do next, so I just stayed and chat with my friends trying my best to ignore her... Luckily my friends protected me and I wasn't bullied like I was a fool... she sucked her drink with the straw and blew it at me and the drink was over my shirt.
Just now I just told my mum that incident, and my mum scolded Sandra and now she is going to get after me!!! GOSH!! anyway, i did nothing wrong. That's what i meant, she dares to do it but doesn't dare to face the consequences :(

NAPFA

Its better to get fit early before u regret... Today had NAPFA, and i only can do 14 sit ups luckily i passed, 10 incline pull up = pass, sit and reach i think its 26cm... passed. 12.92seconds shuttle run = passed, staning broadjump 110cm fail :( However i tried my best.... so, do get fit before u go P4 for your NAPFA those who are 9years old on that day (birthday come yet), you no need to worry that much, where else, those who are 10 years old on that day, u have a little worry especially for the standing broadjump, quite a number of people in my class failed especially the girls

Good Friend

Today, 2/7/10 was my 1st good friend day. It was a marked this day to be my 1st day and my 1st time good friend, I couldn't accept the reality that I had my good friend.

Infocomm June Camp 2010

Today, I participated in the Infocomm June Camp. 1st, we played some games in the morning. After some games in the morning, we were divided in to groups my best friend was in the same group =D, after dividing into groups, we went to Science center. I was so sleepy that time and I felt like sleeping on the bus, however, the P3s were quite noisy and so, i couldn't sleep. Soon, we reached the science center. My group name was fire. At the science center, we were suppose to walk in our own groups. We kept losing our group members so we had to shout "FIRE! FIRE!". Luckily I told my friend " Eh, don't say FIRE! FIRE! la or else later people taught that there's a fire.? So, she stopped saying, but soon, we started shouting fire again :P luckily there wasn't any silly people who thinks that there's a fire.

okok enough of science center... at 12:10pm, we went back to school and reach there about 1pm and had lunch; nasi lemak. After that, we had more games as well as treasure hunt and poison ball.

Treasure hunt, we won 1st hehe :D Overall, We won 2nd. There was door gifts too :D

:P

Today, woke up at 6am... grrr so early just because of Sandra!!! went to sch at 7:30am+ for supplementry class. my Supplementry class starts at 8:30am -_- sandra adam khoo starts at 8am, so have to follow her... When we reached there, i was supposed to line up at amphitheatre, but in the end, it was occupied by my sister's adam khoo (whole P6) so went to void deck to line up.

At supplementry class today, Our teacher gave us worksheets to do (comprehension) we have to read the passage first find the answer must bracket but cant write down. So we waited, sitting there like a statue... nothing to do. After some comprehension exercises were done, we had a break, luckily I brought twisty. :D After the 20 mins break, we went up, we continued to do comprehension exercises as well as some adverbs thing. After those, we played a game, a game that we must guess 2 adjective. i won 2 points so lousy... but anyway still ok. alot of people get 1 point only

Sch hols

GOSH! okok, shall not talk much. School's starting soon. 1 more week left to catch up with school work if you didn't do well in semester1 and wana do better... From Term 1 till 2 i've been slacking, and my results gone bad got two band 3s!!! and two band 1s and even get 36 position in class. Now, i've set a target already. Maybe all my subjects MUST get 80+ and above in order not to go beyond band 3.

How successful u are if you don't give up

Take the example of me, yesterday, i tried to put music to my blog but i almost success but unfortunately, the music cant be played automatically. However, i did'nt give up instead, today, i succeeded =D. It can be played on its own, with the song that i wanted. It was a close shot before i gave up.
Success will only come if you try

report bk

grrr. lost my report book... but i believe its either my sister or dad took it, they always don't admit it. and then i have to take the rap myslef!

Win=win Lose=lose

sigh... a few days ago, my mum promised me she would bring me to science center today. yesterday night, my sis say she want to go eat la mian then my mum say who choose correctly the dice is on which side 3 times then she would respect their choice. At 1st i won 2nd time my sis and me won 3rd time my sis win, so she get to eat her la mian. Sigh... how could my mum like that? She promised me long ago and had not even promised my sis :( never mind since i lose, i should give in and forget about my dream going to science center forever... Nobody would take me there anyway...

Tang's family

sigh... tang family gona migrate to canada man... sad... somemore cant send them off to the airport. Feeling abandon... Wish they wouldn't go so early

Unfairness

Mum just called. She say I got 36/42. While Sandra passed the subject mum say 1st time she pass all subject then mum even say gona reward her then i say eh, i also pass all my subjects leh i should deserve a reward too. but why mum say no? i even pass all my subjects for all the lvls so far... I don't know what i should do so unfair i pass P1 also i dont get a reward P2, P3 till P4 i passed all subjects but dont get anything in return.

damn...

idiotic sand come disturb me again... i say the f word den mum scold me... but i dont think i deserve the scolding. sandra does. sigh... nw i gt nobody who i can protect me or listen to me... even mary has gone home... sigh... i wonder who can give me the things i want. i dont even know wat i realy want most. but i hope there's somebody i can lean on whenever i m sad. i just wan a hapy life without getting scolded for no reason :( my life is forever lik this there is no change

long time no post...

hais... exam coming... but still hav infocomm club things to do like do my script and reserach then somemore got science hw to research... damn busy now. i believe everybody's SA1 also coming. and the P6, hope u study hard then after ur PSLE can start to play. lets start to study!!! after SA1 can start partying yoohoo dat's my fun part.

unreasonable people

Stupid! my dad anyhow blame me for deleting his photo but i never even delete i know him since i was small, he always blame people when something go wrong. Always he did the thing dat he blame people but in the end, its him who does it! den sandra also cut in to blame me den after dat, my grandfather also cut in and my mum also cut in to blame me! f*** them man

hi again

hais... jus nw jus hav a fight with stupid sandra... i jus put her bag on the floor bcoz i didn't wan it to block the way... then she come in n accuse me i throw her bag on the floor without even noeing the facts. its nt i dun wana tell her she dun give me a chance! she jus start to throw my things around man!!! do u tink she's acting like a baby?! a baby always throws tantrum wenever the parents dun go her/his way. sandra oso wenever we dun go her way den she will start cursing people. does it mean we must kip givin in? does it mean dat onli she has a career a dream?

happy times

Hais... yesterday just have a reunion diner. today will have another reunion diner. But today is CNY eve and i believe that most of u will have your reunion diner today. for me, still have to go tuition so bad boooooo...

HAPPY NEW YEAR

I wish everybody a happy new year. Time to let go off worries.

my bday

today is my bday but still gt bullied hais...

celebration

today is my celebration of my bday but im still sad cause this afternoon my mum was clearing things then my dad saw sth missing but actually its not missing its just that my dad didn't even buy!!! then he accuse my mum of throwing it away u guess how angry i was man!!!

YEAH

YEAH exam over already but still have to worry about other things:( I'm still thinking about my future but i'm sure my future isn't ruined yet but my life is ruined as a childhood but who knows, My life may be ruined when i'm in adulthood

Worrying and thinking...

Hais, I need to worry about exams... and homework these few days i've been staying up late :( I've never been so tired until today... I have some feelings that my dream is never to be fulfilled. I've decided to stay up late till I study enough for the day

My class photo when i was in P3A

Try seeing my face :D
the boys so pai seh kip bullying people see for yourself

What is life

I understand what is life just now I realized it. I have a lot of question in life... today, I went into the toilet to think what life is about. Life is God give it to you don't give up your life though your life is not happy as a children I don't think you can choose your happiness. Don't disappoint God by ending your life. Life is like a road. But a human carries pressure while road carries vehicles... The burden is forever on me people don't know how to respect others so their life is difficult to struggle through so I thought for a while, life is always a burden to you I encourage you all to carry on struggling. Always when you are hurt, go to a lonely place, and cry if you don't want to embarass yourself, that way you will feel better that's what I do I hide the burdens away from my family members not even 1 person in my family knows that I'm feeling hurt. :( Life is a lifelong route... Nobody can escape from it. Well, you can choose your friends who you want to share your problems but I've got no friends to share with so always at school I always like to be alone reflecting why is life so hard. But I advise you to share with a friend don't be like me. The burden is on me.

So what if its my birthday coming soon???

My birthday is coming soon 8 feb but so wat if its b=my b'day? i wont be happy. though i noe that happiness is we have a choice we make it. but do u tink i can be really happy 1 day? i don't tink so...

28/1/10 dairy

today, my teacher thought me about modes of communication... what they said on the slide is all DONTS but I'm doing it instead so I've been sad since they started talking about this... for example, they tell me not to bottle up my feelings, they tell me there's a time for me to relax but do you think so? they even say not to avoid your problems so I've been thinking whether to face up to problems and reality or avoid problems and reality... But I don't think its the right time to to pour out your feelings from the bottle... Instead of facing up to your problems, you rather you rather keep quiet because if you face up your problems, you will get scoldings so you better not risk it!!!:P
If it is money problems, we as children can do a great help, we can stop asking our parents for money instead you should be saving for all you can if you need to buy a book for school, use your own money unless it is not enough. for example we can save money on recess we can don't eat and eat at home after school. though we can't do much, but at least we're helping our parents. Although I understand some of your parents often scold you, but you must think that they are doing it for your own good...

22/1/10 dairy

Hais... yesterday night, I cried because i was afraid of when my mum was old who was going to take care of her? so if my dad do not take care of her, i will force my dad to take care of her...
today, there's more question about life for me to reflect. Sandra do not face consequences which will make it hard for my family. Mum and dad do not co-operate with each other... my mind is mad now I wish i could end my life so that I no need to think about all these problems. We need a man a trusted man. though our problems is difficult to solve, but I life still goes on... because we need to face the reality, consequences. So I'd like to share this sentence to all of you "though matter how life is, we shouldn't just end your life. like me, though though we cannot choose who is our parents but we can choose the route we go" these 6 values is important 1. perseverance 2. resepct, 3.integrity, 4.equality and 5.compasion 6. responsibility. i say perseverance is because life will still go on we have to face difficulty if you don't persevere means you dont resepct yourself only you can choose your route which way u wan to go. and respect is still about life though you don't like the opponent you don't want to go to competition but at least even if you know that you are going to lose, come on face the reality if you go to the competition you are respecting your opponent. and integrity is if you dont have integrity you wouldn't own up you didn't do your work. but why bother to get more scolding you rather own up than get scolding. euality means to be fair to everybody even if you hate this person you brought some snacks, share with that person because for example if u dont share nothing will change your mind set to hate that person rite? ask yourself will lie change? ans is no to me. compassion - care about that person at least... responsibility- be responsible for your work face consequences u didn't do hw at least u deserve to be scolded DO NOT blame ur parents or your friend or your teachers. u are responsible to pack ur things and do your work if you blame your other people, bear this is mind, 4 fingers is pointing at you... okay thats what i've got to tell you now "be strong" for those people who are in the situation as me.