Should i tell??

I really don't know anymore... I don't want you to get hurt... moreover ruin our friendship just because of him... yes, i still hate him even if he give me 20 marks... you mustn't forget that he gave you 21 marks... I thought at that time when your results was annouced. When you read the poem, you were softer than me, when you wrote the poem, i was better than yours... what right did you get to get higher marks than me... yes, I'm jealous but yet at the same time glad that you got higher than me... But why, why must he be so bias to you and give me lower marks than you? I'll accept it if I did worse than you, but I don't know why... So, please just stop asking me for the reason that I still hate him... I never ever want to betray you and hate you just because of him, because it's really not true that I hate you... I don't hate you but just feel 不甘心... sometimes, it's better not to know than to know the truth... I hope you understand...
Sorry......